Jumping ahead to TODAY- Nov 6th (promise to fill you in on the last 36 days too)
On the road again- 37 days since we left San Clemente- super
behind on my blog- but trying to keep good notes to update when I can.Biggest reason for the delay is the photos- I
need to get them off my camera and Josh is the only one who knows how to do
that.If you know me, or Josh, you know
that once I learn how to do something- it becomes my burden ongoing, so I am
not learning this.Be patient though-
updates are coming on where we have visited so far:
Ramona and Julian CA
Novato and SF CA
Redcrest CA (Redwood Forrest)
Portland, Beaverton and Tillamook OR
Seattle, Redmond, Bainbridge Island, Mukilteo, Sequim,
Poulsbro WA
Now in Yakima WA almost to Pendleton OR on our way to the
Nampa/Meridian and Boise ID area
Can I just be honest though.We are driving- again, away from family.. further further into.. the
unknown.I am growing weary of staying
strong- for everyone.Mainly for my
kids.I can’t overly be sad in front of
them as they will definitely reflect it themselves.I am sad though.I feel lost.I am learning new things from the Lord daily.My biggest one is “we are strangers in this
world”.I understand it at a new level.Not only because everywhere we go is new and
unfamiliar but because we are called to “store up treasures in heaven” and not
here.My very core- perhaps because I am
a woman, or a mother I don’t know- but my core wants stable- safe-and somewhere
to root.Every place we have gone I feel
a pull to stay at, because deep in me doesn’t want to be nomadic.I want to be “home”.I feel so lost guys.I know I am where I am suppose to be but not
knowing where I am going or when we will be “home” has it’s toll on my
heart.My view of Gods earth feels
distant- like a look from the moon- it’s an untouchable beauty and I am just
waiting for God to show us the landing spot.I’ve visited with my mom, my dad, my brother in SC, my brother in OR,
Joshs dad, my cousin Danielle, my Aunt Joanne, we have visited the kids Uncle
Ragi, my Uncle Newt, My Aunt Becky- and we have so many more to see on the
road.This wouldn’t be possible if we
were living like this for now- but I feel like I am saying goodbye and not
really hello- cause I don’t know where I am going.Everyone has been so great and encouraging
and helpful.I look at my kids and smile
and stay strong for all those I visit and that visit us, but I am sad.Have you seen inside out?I just saw it for the first time a few nights
ago.Sad is ok, and this is me getting
through it- by sharing it with you.Don’t
worry I am not overly sad, sobbing and depressed or discouraged sad just… driving-
in- the- car- and- no- one- knows- I- am- typing- this- sitting- silently- in-
tears- sad.
Here’s my prayer- (on my radio now- thanks Leela Braganza)
Sept 30th- Oct 1st
Spent the night in the RV outside our apartment- we had to be out by midnight and we spent the whole evening cleaning everything that we could so we could be sure to get our deposit back. By 1am Josh and I were finally settled and in bed. We kept the slide out only a few inches so we could get back to the kids if they needed us- sadly they did. Despite what I thought was a great idea in using these to create a bed rail for each bunk:
Savannah completely broke her bed rail and fell out of bed in the middle of the night BAM, SHAKE SCREAM- jumping out of bed to see my girl covered in blood.. She had lost a tooth in the fall- a bottom tooth that was already loose but it sure did scare her. She didn't remember falling but calmed down after a light cleaning and slept with us the rest of the- um- morning. At about 6am I took this pic of her in our bed, and Cheyenne of course (who ends up in our bed nearly every morning).
When morning did come I noticed that the poor thing had also split her chin open (this had happened before with the whole loosing-of-a-tooth thing too and ended with stitches.). Poor thing! She was terrified. So instead of leaving town right away we found ourselves going to the urgent care center- with the whole rig. We couldn't park anywhere near the entrance so parked a few blocks over in the Walmart parking lot in San Clemente and Josh walked her over. She so wanted me to be there if she needed stitches- but alas she went with Josh. While they were doing there thing I started looking for a campground in the Temecula area. Being new to RVing (literally hours in) I didn't really realize that a lot of places just book up and that reservations should be made 2 days in advance. Man I called around and used a couple of cool sites and books (allstays.com and a book called "Free and low-cost campgrounds"
Without much luck and too worried about Savannah I decided to bring the kids into Walmart and just as I was getting them all out of the Silver Bullet Josh and Savannah return- with a bandaid and a treasure. NO STITCHES!! What a relief, and a smile from my girl worth a thousand bucks (instead it cost us $90 because the urgent care wasn't in network... but it was worth it since they checked out her back and neck too giving me peace of mind that all was fine).
So now we are coming up on say 2pm- and we are STILL in San Clemente- so we head out... oh but we don't get far as something just isn't riding right. I mean this is the first time we have driven it loaded but we were just so bouncy. We tried to pump up our airbags but after 3 exits we decided to stop off at the Carls Jr in south side San Clemente where the truckers always are to check the hitch.
It wasn't looking good- back of the truck too low and front of the trailer too low.
As we were debating on how to remedy it this man in a truck towing a boat pulls into the parking lot and jumps out of his truck in a panic asking Josh if he wouldn't mind checking his back. He had gotten stung by a bee while driving and wanted to have someone check it out- he had never been stung before. It hurt and he wasn't sure if he was having an alergic reaction. We helped him and looked at it and I got him some rub on benedryl to relieve the itch and he calmed down. As he was getting back in his truck he just casually says "turn it over"- he pointed. "The hitch" he continued "turn it upside down, I do it all the time, it'll give you more lift"- and just like that we had a solution. Now where was that tool- Josh brought every one he had but nope, we just didn't have the right size. So I stayed behind with an unhitched trailer, a camping chair and a baby and Josh and the other kids went to buy the tool to take the hitch off and turn it around. He returned and did his deal and we are STILL in San Clemente.
We hadn't sold our van yet so were planning to pick it up and bring it with us to SD. We could just sell it from there since we would be there for a few nights. It seemed like a decent plan but then my mom opted to hold it in San Clemente for us and help facilitate its sale so back into town we go to pick up the van. A final goodbye to the apartment and then dropped the van off in my moms driveway. A final goodbye to her neighborhood and to our loyal van that I am just so sad we couldn't find some way to keep... and then we were FINALLY on the road out of town. It was like to longest goodbye ever. You know the whole "pull the bandaid off quick" kind of deal.... this was like slow and painful! But we were on our way to...to.. oh crap thats right, we had NO IDEA! South- that is all we knew and so we went.
I did finally find a place- Dixon Lake RV park. GPS'd it and we thought we had the worst behind us.
GPS FAIL- it brought us a total back terrible way that literally brought us to a one way road with an impossible hairpin turn and we have a 50' total vehicle. We were stuck and had to pass the turn and continue down into some kind of farmland or something. We found a small little trash can area that we just stopped at to figure out what to do. Turning around there was the only option but it wasn't going to be easy. Joshs driving skills and my direction giving skills were put to the most gruesome test before we had even learned how to drive or give directions. We blocked farm traffic, scrapped the bottom of the RV in a dip.. back and forth slow and steady until we turned that puppy around to face the giant hill we had just come down. We had to gun it- 1st gear, scraaaaape goes the rear and everyone cheering as we go go go in 1st gear and that was that. We learned a valuable lesson- to use "truck" routes and "truck" GPS settings going forward!
Seriously- Google maps and the GPS insisted on the blue route and in true "The Office" fashion we follow the directions completely out of the way onto a one way narrow farm street that is impossible for an RV. We should have taken the 'duh' route- and we did when we came back and forth to town in the days to come. We had to warn our visitors though so they wouldn't make the same mistake!
Oh but the novice adventure continued when we got to our campground to find that we had a space exactly the size of our RV- no wiggle room- with a cliff of sorts on all sides, and we gotta back the thing it. We really starting second guessing if we could even do the trip at all at this point. It was about to get dark and we are on a cliff. Josh is so great though, doesn't freak or feel pressured by the blocked traffic, takes it slow and back and forth and back and forth we get in there and it is just perfect. Remember how trailers have no brakes- and now we are unhitching it on the edge of a cliff trusting little orange and yellow triangles under the wheels to keep it from rolling to its death- well you can understand our apprehension to be inside while this took place so me and the kids sat outside in the dark while Josh unhitched and we all just hoped it wouldn't roll away. Once confident that it wasn't going anywhere we piled in and pushed the slide out immediately.
Our tiny area to park for our first real night in our new home. This street is on the top of a ridge- great view from our place down to the city below. If you look closely you can see we had stairs down to a picnic area, which was nice! More pics of that in the next post about our stay in Dixon Lake.
I remember that I had found a VHS in the RV about how to use the slide out properly so popped that in while we were getting settled inside. Well - you are suppose to level the RV first, before pushing the slide out- opps. Leveling the RV is important for the fridge to work, the stuff not to roll all over the place and for the slide out- but we had already put it out and were definitely not level while watching the video. So we slept somewhat upside down that night. We learned we needed something like this, but we also knew that the next time we would move the RV wouldn't be until we left that campground:
Levi bit a hole nearly through his lip on Friday (#overbiteproblems)
Savannah lost her first front tooth on Saturday
In the middle of the day Saturday I was standing on some stuff packing boxes in
high and tight inside the POD and took a pretty bad fall. Luckily nothing broke but I
seriously injured my right shin to the point that now, as I write this
post 2 weeks later, I can tell I have permanent nerve damage as parts of
my leg are numb (and not the parts that got directly injured).
Our sweet friends the Rehards let us borrow a few of their kids to
help watch ours and brought us dinner on Saturday. Note to self: if
someone is moving and you really want to help- bring them dinner! We
were so overwelmed with everything food and feeding the kids just got
neglected. One of many families we shed tears over saying goodbye to.
We
packed and packed and I found the kids like this Friday night. They
had put themselves to bed and Charlotte figured out a way to put
headphones into her TV so she could still watch and listen while the
other kids were asleep.
Nevertheless our tetris skills paid off
and we got everything we wanted to pack into the POD except one bench-
no joke, we packed the thing full to the top with 2 bunk beds, our queen
bed, a coffee table, the kids dresser, all their toys, clothes, a
garage full of Christmas boxes, books, movies etc etc. I really didn't
think we could do it. And the only thing we absolutely couldn't fit was this one last wooden bench. There is some history with the silly bench so we brought it with us- for now.
The bench just wouldn't fit
We said goodbye to our stuff after 3 days of packing. An odd feeling as we, as a family, have never done this before.
We
also said goodbye to some dear friends- including our own Ms. Sharon.
For us- Ms Sharon has been a lifesave- she is loved by all and we will
miss her dearly (already do- definitely). She has been such an
encouraging voice on this journey to the unknown, a faithful friend in
prayer and probably understands the intense bi-polar emotions I have had
related to this whole journey more than anyone else. We hope to be
blessed with a visit from her wherever we end up.
Savannah
and Charlotte said goodbye to some friends they have literally known
from birth. I hate to pull them from "all they have ever known"
(Savannahs heartbreaking words not mine)- but I pray they will thank me
for it one day. She is such a sentimental girl- even more than her
mother- so I sympathize with her and am doing my best on our adventure
to make it just that- an adventure that she enjoys. I have already found
her once crying softly in her bunk missing "home"- if only she knew I was doing
it too. Love that kid!
Levi, Charlotte, Chloe, Savannah, Kallie, Dodge
And saying goodbye to our church. I was born attending this church when it was called First Baptist Church of San Clemente. When we returned as a fmaily in 1996 we sought out the church to find that it was renamed Pacific Coast Church and I have been attending ever since. I had my first job working at this church. It was in 1999 that I met Josh through this church and the "College and Career Group", it was the Pastor of this church that married us in 2002. We saw the church grow and almost bulldoze and rebuild, then we saw the church split and then we witnessed Gods work in each part of that split for his glory. We dedicated our kids here- and now here was our last attendance. Savannah was in her class for the last time and the other kids came with us to the family/cry room and all sat together. The history here is more than they can understand as I recall sitting in this room childless praying for children of my own- and there they sit- the motivation for this journey- the gifts that seem to have come all at once- as so we attended and left quietly and not many people really knew it was our goodbye.
And lastly the apartment. Josh and I met on this street- Avenida Rosa- 16 years ago
and probably past this apartment multiple times on our cheap dates
walking to the pier. Ironically after college we ended up on the same
street - it was on the porch that I found out I was employed at
Saddleback College as a Sign Language instructor. We had 16 foster kids
live with us in that apartment- 4 after Savannah and Charlotte were
born. I went into labor 4 times in that apartment. It was where we started our family- and lost our family- and grew our family- and
then outgrew the apartment. As we were packing our last things I captured
these memories that we couldn't bring with us- might not mean much to anyone but me but they pull at my
heart.
The height growth wall- I didn't mark on the home for years, but then
one day I just decided we were staying there forever and so I might as
well. It had all the kids on it except Cheyenne and I copied it onto a
board that I brought with us in the RV.
This is Grandma Melodi- so I have been told- Charlotte, years later, added her own scribbles and her name!
Savannah drew this on the wall when I was pregnant with Levi from the lower bunk of the bunk bed- I was so angry that she drew on the wall until she explained that it was our family- that is me with Levi in my belly, Josh and then her and Charlotte. Her face beamed with pride that she was "decorating for the baby". We discussed it and she never wrote on the wall again- but something kept me from magic erasing it and now there it is- a final portrait on the wall when all else has been removed and I left it.
Its been a crazy month- bought a truck, gave a 30 day notice for our apartment (which they are now trying to rent for $2200- that is $650 more than we pay now- a 42% increase - crazy, bought an RV and we have been packing and purging daily. The month overall has flown by but the last two weeks have seemed to drag with the constant worry about where to put the beast. See we got this HUGE RV (32') which we attached with a hitch (3-4') to a large SUV (about 16') so we are practically a semi truck driving down the street and we show up in this little downtown neighborhood feeling like we brought a horse home as a family pet in a tiny apartment. It took us 2 hours to figure out where to park the thing. I am sensing a "rookie mistake" list again...
Rookie mistake #1: Actually thinking we would fit anywhere near our downtown home
Rookie mistake #2: Trailers dont have brakes- so we can't unhitch or the thing can just roll away- how did I not know this? Advice: Buy chocks and a hitch lock right away- or better yet, before you purchase a TT (travel trailer)
Rookie mistake #3: Not thinking about #1 or #2 on the 6 hour drive home
Rookie mistake #4: We are TALL and we didn't even know that SC isn't really conducive to something so tall. Downtown has low hanging trees- and yes, our first parking attempt was met with some branches- but luckily Josh is quite good at maneuvering the beast and no damage was done
Rookie mistake #5: Not checking the weather...So remember those roof gashes and missing vents- no big deal if it doesn't rain and we are in a drought right so we are good for a few days until we can get it to the repair shop- but NOOO- it rains THE NEXT DAY- little "hurricane" type squall knocking down our deck furniture kind of rain. We were warned that it might (thank you Sharon) and tarped it up before any further damage was done. Josh brought it to someone the next day to repair the roof, awning and recaulk seal all the windows. We still need to deal with the refrigerator and the fresh water tank though.
Rookie mistake #6: Assuming a "72 hours permit" to park an RV on the street was indeed 72 hours- well it is not- its 36 hours to load and 36 hours to unload. Opps. First time we parked it was for a good solid 2 days plus a bit- but no one said anything so we though we had done it right... that is until we got it back from the shop and parked it again thinking 72 hours means in-a-row... then we got a warning that we had to move it... but where to... we searched high and low, even had some friends offer us their empty spot- but it ended up being too small (darned beast)- luckily we did find somewhere for $10/night- its just a parking lot but that is all we needed.
Today is Fri 9/25 and its moving day- the POD has come and we are full force packing that thing. Its 16' and we just don't know how we are going to make that work- time will tell. I was super impressed with how the POD company works when it comes to how to deliver such a huge container. You should watch a youtube video on it- its a pretty great contraption and doesn't take much time at all!
For the record PODS wasn't our first choice as we were quoted some ridiculous amount around this time last year from them- we looked into Relocubes, U-Boxed and ATB but PODS won for these reasons:
1. We can store the unit (ATB you can not- you have to get your stuff out on a specific day)
2. Well built construction (u-hauls u-boxes are just plywood and tarps and we weren't confident that would be good for 3 months solid)
3. Good square footage- we liked that we could just get one big unit instead of a bunch of smaller ones that might get separated from eachother.
4. Relocube was a high contender with well built units, ability to store and you can load as many cubes as you need and only pay for the ones you use- BUT they ended up being more expensive due to their high monthly storage fee
So PODS won.
We pack up Fri, Sat and Sun. Monday we get our RV back on our street to finish packing that up (for 36 hours)- and then Oct 1st we begin our adventure. First stop- San Diego/Temecula/Julian. Yes we realize this is the wrong direction to get to our real first stop in Portland BUT we need to do our traditional Julian Apple picking, go to the Zoo one last time and look at Temecula thru the lense of "could we thrive here?"- so we are almost out but we aren't going to be too far right away.
So- we camped- on Lake Havasu as a family for the first time. It was
great! The kids loved swimming. Even Cheyenne went it- it wasn't
too cold! Our campsite was RIGHT next to the lake.
Me with all 4 by myself in the lake- none are proficient swimmers so I can never do this at the ocean- but in this pic I am actually on my knees and the water was so refreshing
All ready for the lake
In the background you can see the AZ side of Lake Havasu- a ferry could have brought us across for abut $2 each but we only had one night so we just stayed put.
Im standing in the lake taking this picture
Aww- sunrise at the lake- I sneaked out in the early morning to experience the tranquility solo!
But we weren't alone- see our neighbor in front of us- that is Stephen. Super nice and helpful guy. One of many full timers we are sure to meet along the way. Stephens advice: use peroxide in the gray water tank to help reduce smell when the unit hasn't been used in a while. Thanks Stephen
Sunrise on the lake. Despite the extreme heat I think lake life is MUCH more my style and have already begun modifying where we will be camping to include places that have lakes!
So this is actually a picture of one of the bunk mattresses- with a rock on it. Read below regarding "rookie" mistake.
Our truck, our camper, our little piece of Lake Havasu for 2 days
We are SUCH rookies at this though.
Rookie mistake #1: In an effort to clean and febreeze the kids mattresses I
left one outside- it flew into the lake! Luckily our neighbor saved it
and it dried up nicely overnight! Advice #1: put a rock on your mattress
when drying it outside
Rookie mistake #2: Toilet got "stuck" in flush mode and... we
didn't know how to stop it- the black water (sewer) was just filling up with
the continuous flush and we didn't know how to fix it. So unplug the
water and 2 you tube videos later Josh found a manual lever to turn ir off. Advice
#2: Get a lesson in how to use to toilet and then teach it to each toilet user
in the RV
Rookie mistake #3: Dinner time and- oh look we don't have an
oven. Seriously? We just laughed. We bought the thing and are in it
for hours before we even noticed. Luckily we don't care that much as we
were planning to bring a toaster oven anyway - and as our neighbor said
"who bakes on the road". The plus side is we have that whole
oven space as a huge storage area. Lesson #3: Check for all appliances!
Rookie mistake #4: Dinnertime and.. no propane for a gas oven?
Duh. Neighbor to the rescue again (this is what I love about RV life- so many
people willing to help and give advice. Stephen came over and helped Josh with
so many things, gave us lots of great advice as a "full timer"- and
even let us borrow some propane so we could have dinner. Then he caught
himself a catfish for his dinner!)
We did it- I can't believe it- we got an RV. It's been a little crazy as we were lined up to buy a 2004 Cougar quad bunk that was located in Chico, CA (north of SF- so about 8 hours from us). We had it inspected by a professional and checked out an identical unit closer to home to be sure it was what we wanted. We prayed for Gods guidance as it was our max budget including the gas up there and back and it needed to be in tip-top shape. The owner said it was but we felt we should have it inspected first. Turns out the owner wasn't available for the inspection guy to come out until Saturday Sept 3rd. He decided to show the unit to someone on Friday even though we had the inspection scheduled for Saturday morning. The inspection was over mid morning and - supposedly- immediately afterwards the viewer from Friday showed up with cash and gave him more than we were going to. AWWW- We were so upset- the rug was pulled from right under us- AND we were out the inspection cost we had paid. BUT- God is good. The inspection came back that the unit was not in as good of shape as was told us and most alarming was that there was a "soft spot" in the queen room on the roof. After voicing our frustrations Josh and I came to two realizations:
1. Even if the unit hadn't sold to someone else- we likely wouldn't have wanted it anyway and would have been out the inspection fee either way
2. God went before us and protected us from a long trip to come back empty handed.
So back to the drawing board. We found another RV- about an hour north. It wasn't in perfect condition but was HALF the price we were willing to spend because the guy needed it gone that day. We called- we were packing to go see it and pick it up. We figured at half the cost we could afford near any minor repair but needed to see it before fully committing. Once again the guy sold it to someone - literally an hour after we contacted him- and this time for LESS than we were committed to give him. We were frustrated BUT learned our lesson from rug pull #1 and really were just thankful for whatever it was God was protecting us from in that purchase.
Then Josh found a different bunkhouse (a double bunk house is what we were looking for- that is 4 bunk beds in the rear- one per kiddo). It was in Lake Havasu and was recently reduced- priced to sell. We spoke with the owner- a sweet Grandmother who let her kids and their kids use the unit at the lake and stored in onsite also at the lake. The thing was hardly driven. She had gotten new tires on it (a large expense we were thankful was already done). So we did what we did with the SF unit- tried to order an inspection. Turns out that the AZ side of Lake Havasu has plenty of inspectors but the CA side- is pretty much desolate. We got a few quotes from people willing to travel around the lake, or down from Las Vegas but the travel expenses were so high that we realized we could drive out there, not get it, and come back for cheaper- so that was the plan. We invited my mom to join, and my dad, my mom offered to babysit so we could go but it ended up just being us- Josh, Sarah and the kids- all of them.
Josh bought a hitch, got the truck ready and come Saturday morning (9/12) I woke the kids up before the "sky was awake" and told them we were going on an adventure! Amazingly- and if you have children you have to know how miraculous this is- EACH KID WOKE UP HAPPY- not a tear was shed. I kept the lights low, nursed the baby and put her in the carseat, gently woke my oldest and got her dressed in bed, then Charlotte (who is doing great at night due to the Dry-me alarm given to us by a nice craigslist lady), then Levi. I woke him up the gentlest and whispered about the adventure. He said "adventure" and this kid doesn't talk! So we all sat out on the curb in the early morning waiting for Daddy and the "silver bullet"
It was about a 6 hour drive (3 movies worth is what I told the kids). I had a special gift for them to open after we passed each 100 mile mark. The gifts were mainly things they already had that they'd just forgotten about.
1. Crayola Color Wonder paper and markers
2. A lacing game we "raced" to finish
3. Travel Guess Who game
4. A Jake and the Neverland Pirates figurine for Levi
We watched: How to Train your Dragon, The Incredibles and Frozen.
Once out there we met with the owners son in law who had gotten there early enough to set up the unit in our campsite. See we still don't have a generator so weren't sure how to test it- until I suggested that we just purchase a campsite for the night and have it hooked up there. $32 and we can test everything out. It was so nice to have it already pulled in, AC going, slide out, leveled and hooked up. The interior was great, a few minor cosmetic things but overall real nice. The outside was as expected with the peeling decals and awning fabric torn. We knew all that before driving out there. What we didn't know was that the roof had a few rubber sections that needed patching, a skylight that was cracked, a vent missing and that the fresh water tank was dry and in need of replacement.
In need of recaulking/ resealing
Gashes i the rubber
In need of a new rubber layer (apparently this is painted on yearly in well maintained trailers)
The newest rubber layer flaking off
Cracked skylight (means potential leaks)
Missing an entire vent cover
The largest of the rubber gashes
We also weren't confident in the refrigerator as after 2 hours it still wasn't showing any sign of chill. Nevertheless we went for it- we took the Ref risk after learning it could take up to 24 hours to cool completely and bought the RV for $3200 under our budget-!! We intend to use that to fix up the roof, water tank etc though. The kids were hungry so I brought them to a little grocery store nearby while Josh finished up the paperwork. I figured it would take the owners about an hour to empty out all of their stuff. BUT they just LEFT IT ALL. Good and bad I guess. A lot of it was trash, or old BUT it was like a treasure hunt to clean the thing out. So far we have found:
Brand new grill meant to mount on a boat
Boat propeller
A scuba propeller
2 pull behind huge blow up boat raft toys
A hoover vaccuum
A wake board
A waterski
New hubcaps for the RV
3 large papasan folding chairs
Tons of sheets, blankets etc
4 animal pillows that Savannah was hopeful they would leave!
RV "Stuff" for the toilet
Cleaning stuff
Brand new zip locks, trash bags, paper towels, cleaning supplies
Lots of pots and pans and other cookware
An expresso maker
A starbucks small carafe coffee maker
AND we aren't even done going through everything.
Josh has been diligently selling our furniture, bikes and extra stuff out of the garage so he is certain he can sell some of the above that we can't use- and this will help make up the fridge cost- if there is any.
